death has been on my mind a lot lately. I always try to keep the fact that I could die anytime in mind, but it’s been more than that. I’ve had a few close calls on my bike recentely, and I found out that I’m in someone’s will, so i think i want to share a few thoughts about how I perceive death and I how i want things to happen if i should die. First, because I’m athiest I do not beleive in any kind of supernatural afterlife. I do however beleive that it’s very important for people to leave an impact on the people that outlive them and to make some kind of positive impact on the world while they’re alive. I do try to keep that kind of prespective in the things I do but I also beleive that it’s important to have as much fun as possible while alive; I don’t think those two things are contradictory. as i’m writing this, i feel that i will die happy, but i would be far from satisfied. I don’t want the circumstnaces of my death to be misconstrued in order to make reality less painful. people should know exactly what happened and they shouldn’t be afraid to grieve. under no circumstances do i want to live in state where i can’t do anything productive in life. i really want to stress that point. i don’t think death is always a bad thing. As far as my personal assets go, i trust that the people in my life have enough common sense to work that out. for my body, i would first want it be be used for people who need organs, second to be used for medical/scientific purposes, and thridly i would want to be creamated. I know funerals are important for some people but I really don’t think they make a lot of sense. I would want to have a memorial serivce and I would hope that whoever organises it won’t be afraid to show me for who i really was instead of just showing the easy stuff. I’m sorry if i’m freaking you out by talking about all of this death stuff, but i really want people to understand my views, and i dont want you to have to guess about what i wanted in the event of my death.